Not to sure what to make of it all

Well, I really don't know what to think... part of me wonders if I am cursed, part of me wonders if its just the weather & mother nature and then another part of me wonders if its the start of the end of the world...

Let me give you an idea of what has happened to me in the past few months:

1) So we gather in Chch for my mother's 80th birthday and on the day of mums birthday - 4th September 2010 at 4.37am without warning, a 7.1 richter scale earthquake occurs forcing the city into chaos. Being the start of spring, the city is in darkness because the power goes out. You have no idea what the rest of the city is like and sitting there relaying on someone's iPhone showing pictures of what one could only describe as a warzone. There are pictures of buildings down, rubble over the streets, people roaming the streets looking lost. If thats not enough, then you have to deal with the aftershocks... you don't know when they are going to hit or how big they will be. Geonet.org.nz becomes the most visited website in the country! You hear stories of lucky escapes and not so lucky escapes. The miracle is that no one was killed! I had a week in Chch after the quake and I came back to Brisbane I constantly felt quakes... it was a very nervous couple of weeks - probably took a good month for me to get back to normal - let alone the people still in Chch...

2) In the UK with my sister and we leave for Paris on 18th November.. we get back in to Brisbane on 23rd November... one week later the UK and parts of Europe are under snow. Ok so we weren't actually there but it was a pretty close call to be honest. If we had been just one week later we would have been forced to sleep at the airport!

3) Brisbane January 2011 - the floods... I say floods mean plural!! Toowoomba, Ipswich, Grantham and Brisbane city and surrounding suburbs... suburbs I didn't even know were anywhere near a river where under water to their roofs.. We were lucky. We live opposite Kedron Brook - which on Tuesday 11th January (incidently my nephews birthday) was really high due to the rain... luckily the rain stopped because if it didn't I could be telling you a completely different story. Most people haven't been at work since Tuesday. The CBD was pretty much completely closed down and had no power. The buses & trains were stopped on Wednesday at 1pm, on Thursday out of over 200 bus routes the city has only 7 of them were operating and that was on limited services. Its really weird to go thru this again because a lot of the information and advice is the same - don't go out unless you have to, keep away from danger areas, this will change the face of the city forever, we will rebuild, etc.

One thing came out of this tho - my friend Suzanne use to work for a local Chch tv station and knows someone who works for TV3, she asked if I would want my details sent to them because I was in the quake as well as this.. so yes, I got interviewed for the TV3 news and was on last night - I have never had so many text & FB messages... haha

I am really hoping that the close call in the UK is the 2nd of the "things happen in 3's" scenario... I really don't think I could actually go through this again. Although I wasn't directly impacted with anything destroyed, you just have frayed nerves because you just don't know when, what, or how things are going to happen.

A Song For Me

Have you ever heard a song and thought "that has been written with me in mind"? You know the ones, where every single lyric seems to have been written about you & your life at that very moment in time.

At the moment mine is Down by Jason Walker (see below for lyrics). Seriously every single lyric has been written for me. Some people might listen to it and think its a depressing, sad song and others might listen to it and think that its a song about making a decision with your life... either way, I think the lyrics are really what drives that song and that it could be able anyone in any situation.

You often want to get on with things but life gets in the way and sometimes you feel like you are standing back waiting for something to happen, waiting while the world passes you by and thinking that its never gonna happen for you.

I feel like that often. I know its of my own making and I guess I am the only one that can push my way through, but sometimes I just wish that there was someone on the other side helping me get out of the funk I'm in right now.

Anyway... here's the song -

Down by Jason Walker

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna to fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down.